maybe he's just not good enough for you
so, i've thought a lot about that book "maybe he's just not that into you" and sure, it's a reality check and all that, and it's true, but it still leaves all the power in the guys' hands to go out and pick the ones that they're "really into" and you have to sit back and chill until he comes along..BULLSHIT. what i think i should do is write a book called "maybe he's just not good enough for you" because if you think back on all those that you have dated, well, chances are, you're not still together because, he just wasn't good enough. he wasn't right for you, he didn't compliment your lifestyle or goals, or his dumbass just couldn't realize what he had...
i'm tired of crying over "bad timing" and i will not repeat my mistakes with Satan (who is incidently single again...maybe Horses do have fleeting short term intense luvaffairs after all) and once again, gotta shoutout the ol' friendster as my info source. i still miss kanye, but hey, the reality is that he's not good for me as a partner, maybe as a part-time lover, but sign, seal and deliver this: he has a lifestyle that does not compliment the ribbon in the sky i run towards. call me superstitious, but i really feel that i am that girl who thinks that she's so fine...and i will not settle anymore. period. i would like it if we could be friends, marking the first time that was ever possible with someone who i have been with, but we'll see.
i'm juggling my roster of fabulous eccentric japanese women...starting with "Brenda" (she was named that by her Korean friend "Brandon" because he was lonely with the only English name) who I hooked up with last nite for some shopping and vietnamese food and convo about her nursing and jetsetting to Dubai and Fiji (jelly donuts here, large, strawberry filled ones) and i dragged her to see Shall We Dance, because I love me some JLO! it inspired me to cut my shirts up and be extra diva like in hip hop class tonite.
Earlier, i met with Hurricane, who is my projection of myself in 30 years, and we had a fabulous time at the all you can eat sushi/korean food on kingsway. I finally got to Lewiscraft in Metro, but I got some snobbery about not keeping the label of my yarn...grrr...but i made it up to myself with some booty-full new boycut briefs from AE (my fave).
So, in conclusion, if a guy ever sets you up from the beginning, comes at you with all the baggage and reasons why "he's not good enough", don't ignore it, listen, and don't settle. conversely, if he's a pompous prick who has to constantly put you in your place on the first date...also make like jackie joyner kersey and leave. to quote track 6 on the first solo album: "i've been thinking maybe he's not..." and on that note, this girl will be rollin' solo for some time, as to not repeat the mistakes of last year, overzealously settling for the first everything (job, apartment, guy) that came into my life as i moved back here..all until shower power....pieces.
