a girl's whose name begins and ends with "a"

so, i'm here watching the oscars to see how brokeback will do, with my oldest husband, whom i also went to see the movie with. for a birthday fete, i had to make do with a handmade gift because the one i bought was stolen by the ghost in my apartment. i made the trek over the bridge to west vancouver, that road less travelled...and the jokes here are not really that funny (at the oscars that is). i think i'm finally gonna get my kebabs. just when you least expect things...

so, back to brokeback. i think my relationship with the impish angel is not going to be like that of them boys ("i wish i could quit you ennis del mar!") but that of the lopez and clooney in out of sight, such a sexxy film, i caught it again last nite when i agreed to babysit from 930-130 am, then went to work for 730am..ai-ya. it would have been ok, other than the kidney stone that passed through my eye..but i digress.

ok, so brokeback. i wish that the tender scenes of play didn't have to be interspaced and matched with an equal and stronger opposite scene of violence, and that i didn't have such a sinking feeling that the film is getting so much acclaim because the boys are gay for pay, and the content is such that is contained like the old lesbian pulp novels of the past where it's only ok because they all end with one of them dying or going back to their husbands. i'm not saying that any relationship (gay or otherwise) is all pie and roses (trust me, i'm living that right now) but dammit, does it have to be so tragic? if they win any awards tonite (we've come in at 7pm, and they're really milking everything so we haven't actually seen anything being awarded yet) will it be such a victory, or will it be like halle winning the oscar for writhing on her back with billy bob thorton..."make me feel good" makes a catchy pop culture reference for luda, but really, they could've just awarded it to her for her first role, vivian the crack ho in jungle fever, because that really wasn't that far removed. what about when denzel won it for being a crooked cop in training day (honestly, "king kong ain't got nutthin' on me?!") when he should have won a year before for the hurricane? oh the academy awards folks for fulfilling the same old race and gender stereotypes by having a fancy party and inviting jon stewart or chris rock to host and pat themselves on the back for being "progressive". ugh. gag me with a spoon.

gay boys playing straight, i guess bi on stage in vancouver? maybe, but not so sexxy if they only work out their upper body. if you're gonna get naked on stage, don't have a flabby bum. durien provided the passes to see a pretty forgettable performance, but i will say that there were some good actresses and while the men got physically naked, the women got emotionally naked.

ok. so i am apalled to the gills at the performance of "it's hard out here for a pimp" and the subsequent acceptance speech. i feel it truly epitomizes my above thoughts about the whole torrid affair.

the best part of the evening (with durien) was the fuzzy showering. oh, as a aside, last week i ate so many kumquats my mouth went numb, and i thought of that because above authored an autographing of his pamphlet with the chosen moniker for me "kumquat". anyways, there was something so masculine, so supportive in the way he reached over and put his arm around me, pulled me close and said, "hey baby, what's going on?" and how he cuddled with me during the play and held my hand. i so needed that. i probably didn't need the triple scoop gelati that day (chocolate/hazelnut/orange with plum and pearcheese) but it was pretty great. and he figured out how to use the handheld sewing machine too. the phone message from inside the shop and roger's ice cream excursion today were also very nice. it was pretty funny, because the sales associate was pretending to be deaf, but "we were belligerent".

anyways, where would i be without my fabulous gay gentleman? and why can't you get a decent horlicks anywhere in chinatown or up main street at 10:00 on a friday night?! ok, i guess you can at honolulu but we didn't get that far. all4now.