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i'm back in that spot where i can't exactly explain how i feel, i'm just feeling that "not quite right" feeling. maybe i'm just tired, or maybe i've just finally had the moments to be alone and with my thoughts, and then, following in true goat form, i'm overthinking everything i've underthought in the past couple of months..arrrgh.
i'm kinda bummed about money, though i'm not going to let it get to me, maybe i feel like i'm immune from debt or something, which is so untrue because i'm in it.
i'm finding it hard to stay motivated for the last couple weeks of my mcjob because i haven't seen the raise that i'm supposedly getting and my last cheque will be my last.
i don't know about this trip because i think it will make or break my relationship with my mentor, and my prospects are not looking good otherwise..but hey, since when do i care about work, right? yeah right is more like it...
dunno, kinda in a funk, feel like i need to purge again, or at least vacuum. all things i can do.
i went to victoria and it was kind of a weird trip, but there is a totally strange energy about that town...it was like i was in a time warp: even though things are different, it seems like the kind of place where it doesn't seem to harbour change, and that was the problem when i was there...and nothing was quite as great as i remembered it, not ferris' not the ali baba pizza, but the ice cream was awesome at sweet memories, and the patch still rocks the world...i got my last 2 pair of silver irregulars from capital iron, and it was the end of a couple eras i think...everyone is slowly leaving there and my ties are getting less and less, and that's not a bad thing...ok, this is a pretty boring blog, but i'm gonna go now because my mind seems to be on other unknown things...i'll figure it out. peace.
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