woman i used to be
i tried, but i couldn't hide it...i just gotta get back to me...uh huh. back to the woman i used to be.
or some kind of updated version, you know how you change (for the better or worse) during the course of a relationship....i guess it's just reality check time.
let's back up, yes, for the record, it's over. i made it to two years (a peu pres) and this is the press release, though i've been searching for an appropriate medium, ironic as THAT is, when you live your relationship on the internet...but i figure, if he can go back to the things that he was doing before, then so can i. if i'm the tipping point to him picking up where he left off, it's what i wanted, to facilitate what's best for both of us, and i decided that that was NOT this relationship right now, and i am dealing with the consequences.
easier said than done. whew. but i have to come to terms with the fact that everything i've known for so long still remains true. i will get into it more (in my journal) but this is just a "welcome back" because sometimes you have to watch a play 12 times in a row to actually get the point of what life is presenting you until you get it. sometimes you have to tell yourself for five years straight that you are going to move east before you just suck it up and do it. sometimes you have to want to be able to make it solo through many relationships before you can actually build yourself up to do it. look how long it took dawn robinson, and didn't she eventually end up back with en vogue?
whitney quit bobby, danyel smith came back to VIBE, chapelle quit and came back, relationships are really just a revolving door, and while it might be "same script, different cast", la vedette remains the same, so here we go again....this is the return, bitches. but let's keep it on the low.
ps. it's funny how the people that i wish would read and comment are in the closet, while the ones that i wish would refrain from taking up my space are the same who can't hold back. i kindly ask you to keep that in mind.....peas.
